360 days til graduation!

i thought i'd be a little more long term in my title today.

i got my job back at zips. but i'm not sure when i start b/c i'm replacing of the waitresses going on medical leave for two months-- the one waitress who makes going to work worthwhile (other than the tips). but i'll survive. i'm out to search for lost souls, like my pastor says.

i went to lanikai today. it was just too beautiful of a day to pass up going to the beach. i sat there, journal'd, read a little, and waded a while in the water to speed up the tanning process. there were mostly tourists there kayaking b/c lanikai is known for it's flat waves-- ideal conditions for kayaking.

there was a local man who came to sit on the beach. i could tell it was probably his day off or something b/c he came with a cooler of beer by himself. sad, i know... when i came out of the water, he started striking up conversation with me, intent on finding out the deep details of my life. i didn't say too much and kept everything that he asked superficial. i think he tried to ask me what high school i graduated from (why do small town people need to know this??) but i didn't tell him b/c most times, people stereotype me in some way (it happens very often when i'm waitressing) i told him that i was back from college for the summer and just kickin' it at the beach by myself b/c my friends were probably working or hungover... so he came up to me and offered me a green bottle (infamous as the "beverage of choice" in the islands-- heineken) and i quickly refused. he asked me why i don't drink and i told him that i just didn't want to and didn't believe in drinking. somewhere in the conversation, he found out that EU was a christian college and stopped talking to me (to my relief). but aren't i out to win lost souls?

so i sat there and read. i came across ps 119 and intended to read through it entirely (it takes more than a few minutes for me). all the while, it said something along the lines of how much we love his decrees and search to know him more.
Lord, let that be the cry of my heart to know and love you more each day.

I came across this in my reading as well:
I am sick at heart. HOw long, O Lord, until you restore me? Return, O Lord, and rescue me. Save me because of your unfailing love... The Lord has heard my plea; the Lord will answer my prayer. - Ps 6:3-4, 9

This has kind of spoken to me as of late. it reminds me of the message that Brandon Shank delivered on Ezekiel and how he wasn't to mourn the death of his wife. although it completely contrasts it, it reminds me that even in the midst of mourning, the Lord hears our prayers. sometimes i feel like my heart is sick (a feeling i can't exactly explain) but i ask the Lord to save me with his love, which never fails. it's a beautiful thing...

i came back home and made my dad come work out with me for 45 minutes that the gym upstairs. they upgraded their equipment, which would probably motivate me to come more often this summer. i brought my green ball home, so i'll be doing more work w/ that.

i did some cleaning today around my house and i'm still working on hat #2.

i can't believe i'll be graduating in less than a year!