missing ewe

i got to talking to a co-worker again tonight and i just kept saying how much i missed school and was ready to head back b/c i missed everyone.

i figured out why.

the thing is that all i do here is work. i go to church once a week. i sleep when i'm not working. and i work.

work, work, work.

i don't really talk to anyone outside of work too often.

and at work, all i talk about is:

work.


all work and no play has made Amelia no fun.



i've also been missing my Jesus desperately.

all work and less Jesus has made Amelia desperately seeking.

the sad thing is that work has stressed me out so much that the first thing i've run to most times was my friends. someone to talk to.

i still do talk to Jesus. i ask him to heal my friends, guide my family, and speak into lives around me.

i just feel so unworthy to ask anything for me from the Lord.

what i loved about school were the trips to IHOP (prayer, not pancakes..) it was the relentless pursuit of the Lord, forsaking all responsibilities (not quite) and getting away to be with Jesus. it was glorious.

i just don't get that here.