krispy krunchies

yield: 4 doz

1 c butter
2 c sugar
2 eggs
1/2 c chunky peanut butter
2 c flour
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
2 tsp vanilla extract
1 c quick oats
2 c crisp rice cereal
1 6 oz pkg chocolate pieces

cream butter and sugar tntil light and fluffy. add eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition. add peanut butter and mix well. gradually add flour, baking soda, and baking powder, which have been mixed together; stir in remaining ingredients. drop by rounded teaspoonfuls onto lightly greased cookie sheets. bake. temperature: 350. time: 15-20 minutes or until lightly brown

recipe for mac-nut cheesecake bars

i found this recipe in my mom's recipe book. i think recipe books are my new passion.

1 c flour
1/3 c butter or margarine, softened
1/3 c brown sugar, packed
1/2 c chopped mac nuts
1 egg, beaten
1 8 oz pkg cream cheese softened
1/4 c sugar
2 TBs milk
1 TB lemon juice
1/2 tsp vanilla extract

combine flour, butter, and brown sugar in small mixer bowl; mix on low speed until mixture is mealy. stir in nuts; set aside 1 cup for topping. press remander into ungreased 8" square pan. bake at 350 for 12-15 min or until light brown. combine remaining incredients in small mixer bowl; beat well on medium speed; pour over baked crust and spread evently. springkle with reserved flour misture. bake for additional 25-30 minutes. cool; cut into bars. if desired, top with fresh fruit of choice to serve.

power outages

so the power was out for 17 hours in kaneohe the other day. people were panicking... banding together... camping out in their cars with their dvd players.

my mom slept.

my brother and i played with fire.

at least it was warm and it wasn't an ice storm. lol

i have come to the conclusion that natural crises bring out the best or worst in people.


i rather like the candle-lit atmosphere... it's rather romantic, right?




so today, i wore a ring on my left ring finger. it's one of those spinners that says "he loves me". any of my friends would know that's a purity ring or whatever they call it. i bought it some weeks ago and thought it was neat and good reminder that my Heavenly Father loves me. Jesus loves me... and someday, my husband will love me. so i shouldn't be so quick to give my heart away to the next joe schmoe that says the right things to me. it doesn't fit too well on my right hand... plus it has worked to ward off perverts.

speaking of... i went to visit my old work place. they didn't hire me back. but that worked in my favor. the creep-o that kept saying incessant things to me and calling me "baby" this past summer clearly followed me from one side of the restaurant to the other. he came at me like he was going to hug me... but i quickly moved away and grabbed one of the waitresses to block me.

it's a good thing i didn't get hired back.

so, back to the ring. my pastor and my nieces berrated me with questions because that's the "wrong" finger to wear a ring on... unless i am betrothed... or whatever the word is... but whatever. i didn't bother explaining things to them because i didn't think it important for them to know.

i hung out with an old friend today. it reminds me of the times we'd hang out before. it was nice being around him and just talking about life... then we went and peroused around a thrift store.

my new passion.

you never know what you can find.

i'm not sure why i'm feeling so chatty. maybe because i haven't blogged since the beginning of this month.

i forgot to mention the ordeal i went through from MO to MN... then from MN to HI... but i'll save that for another day. just ask me.

today in church, pastor was talking about what we thought of our church, ourselves, and our world... in all the changes that we've had... and i thought about all of the hard times i have gone through this year.

i fought depression. i said goodbye to a friend who meant so much to me. i welcomed another niece into the world. i have decided (tentatively) on my future.

here's the clincher:
I AM THINKING ABOUT STAYING IN SPRINGFIELD... GETTING A JOB... GOING TO MSU'S MSW PROGRAM.

okay, i think i've written enough for now

infatuated

i'm infatuated.

in-FAT-u-ate-d

yeah... haha

no really. i struggle with the difference between love, lust, and infatuation. yeah, i think it's more so infatuation.
but i don't really think it's even that.

maybe it's just appreciation.

fascination?

haha..

what do I feel for God? what does He feel for me?

Don't let the excitement of youth cause you to forget your creator. Honor him in your youth before you grow old and say, "life is not pleasant anymore."
-ecc 12:1

God has seriously wrapped his arms around my broken heart in the past several weeks... He has enraptured me.... :D For a while, I forgot him... and life became unpleasant :(

hormones.
midterms.
depression.
angst.
michael.
resolution.

It's weird to say Michael's death brought resolution. I have his pic on my desk and remember to pray for his family... I've never had any deeply rooted romantic feelings for him. I have always respected the man that he was and the passion he had...

I would've liked to marry a man like him. I still do.

Oh, how I wish he was here again. I wish I could see him in my dreams and tell him that I miss him... I wish I could tell him that I finally found a girl right for him (which I still have yet to find... haha) I wish to hug him again. He gave good hugs :)... esp coming from a family of seven boys and one girl ;)

it's been almost a month since he died. i still miss him.